Dear Lucy,

     As your Daddy would say, "Oh le wah I'm bad at updating this!" I'm sorry that your first year hasn't been as well documented as I wished it would have been. Don't get me wrong there are tons of pictures and your baby book is pretty up to date. I just had planned on doing many more entries on a much more regular basis than actually worked out to be. Once I went back to work, schedules around the house got pretty crazy.

     This summer has been much harder than last summer was for us.  Last year, Daddy and I just passed you back and forth between our work schedules. This year, you had to go to day care.  I hope you know how much it kills me to drop you off every day. I wish more than anything that we were financially secure enough that I could spend my days with you.  It does get easier as you make friends and start to walk into day care on your own. Oh yeah, you're walking now! You seem to really enjoy going to day care and I know that it's good for you to get used to being around other adults and children.  I just wish there was more time for just us.

     Daddy and I talk a lot about where we want to settle down and really plant our roots.  This time last year, we would have said we pictured ourselves staying in Ohio.  The more that time passes, the less this seems to be where we want to stay.  As much as I love working at Cedar Point, I don't think it's the career for me.  My dream growing up was to be a Mommy and have a family.  In this day and age that may not be the popular life dream, but it's mine.  My family is always my number one priority, and a job like Cedar Point doesn't always allow that to play out.  I want to be able to take family trips during your summer vacation or spring break.  If I stay here and continue on this path, trips and memories like that are impossible.

     Once work calms down I'm going to meet with an advisor at the community college in Elyria to discuss looking into their ultrasound program. I want to go to work everyday and show people their babies! I know it's not all good news, and I'm ready for that part too.  Hopefully this career change will make it easier to have a family life.  I would havae a more reliable and consistant work schedule.

     Hopefully once the park closes I will be able to set up a day each week to update this thing!

All my love,
Mommy